Where do I begin? Well first let me say thank you to all of my members for sticking with me over the last few months. A couple of you have commented or emailed me about my updates and when I would be posting new ones. So this is my first new update in months and I apologize for the lack of new content, but let me explain the reason.
In March I went to my regular Doctor for my yearly physical. I had a couple of things I wanted her to check, long story short, she didn’t know what was going on, but sent me to have several ultra sounds. The ultra sounds came back with some suspicious things and sent me for CT scans in a few areas. So, after the results of all the test, my doc referred me to an Oncologist as she said it looks like I have Lymphoma. My Oncologist had me see a surgeon for a biopsy of one of my lymph nodes to see exactly what we were dealing with.. The test came back that I have Follicular Lymphoma. Which is actually the best bad news I could receive. It is very slow growing and some people can live their entire life and never need treatment. Unfortunately I am not one of those people as I was experience side affects..
On April 30th I started with my first chemo treatment. I would have to have two days back to back chemo days every month for 6 months and then we will see how things looked. I was told there would be very little side affects, maybe some fatigue. Well I am not normal as we all know, LOL. Day two after my first treatments I was so nauseated and couldn’t eat anything for three days. Between the days before prepping my kidneys for the chemo and getting fluids back in me from being nauseated I went into my Drs office for 10 days for IV’s. Second and third rounds, more of the same, not as bad but still not feeling well. The fourth treatment in July, the week after my 50th bday, Chemo kicked my ass. Three days after treatment I ended up in the ER with a fever and I was given an iv and anti-biotic. (Upon diagnoses I was put on an antibiotic that kept me out of the sun all summer long) I had the low grade fever for four days. My Oncologist at my July treatment said she wanted me to have a CT scan to see where we stood and how things looked. When i went in for my August treatment she said things progressed so well that she was going to put me on maintenance and stop my chemo two months early.
So there is no cure for what I have, but it is something I can totally live with and I will be on this maintenance for two years and see how things go. I am feeling really well and aside from having to get my hair cut a little shorter (told ya July kicked my ass) because my hair thinned out a bit, LOL. And the little scar on my neck, I feel really well. Now it is time to hit the gym and get in better shape.
Why am I telling you this now?? I thought you deserved to know what was going on with me. There was a handful of people online that knew what I was going through. I didn’t want to live this online through social media as I didn’t want to be reading comments about people praying for me and things I should and shouldn’t do. I know people think they are trying to make you feel better by comments and helpful hints, but sometimes it just isn’t helpful. Plus I wear my heart on my sleeve and I didn’t think I could deal with reading thoughtful comments without always breaking into tears. But I’m stronger now and fought through and I’m able to talk about it without tearing up, LOL…
So, I am back onboard now with my site and you will be seeing much, much more new content. Thank you again for sticking with me even when you had no idea what was going on… but rest assured, I am NOT sick, I’m NOT leaving and I’m NOT retiring my site. You are stuck with me…
Thanks again for listening or should I say reading…
Hugs and Kisses,
Dawn Marie
Ooooh my word :-( I’m very glad to read, that you are doing better. :-) Please wish Rob a “Happy Birthday” for me!, thanks. I sure hope he was there, “holding your hand” during your chemo treatments. I read you couldn’t eat anything, but to end on an “up” note. Sexy, there are easier ways to get breakfast in bed – – -!
Gary, Thanks so much for the wonderful words. I am feeling GREAT!! I have a check up next week. It was a rough summer, but like I said, compared to what some people go through I can not complain. Thanks for the support. xoxo Dawn
Well sumbitch Dawn! :) I’m glad you are feeling better and thankful you are sticking with us as much as we stick with you! haha I can only imagine what you went through emotionally let alone physically. I am a HUGE fan of the movie, “The Shawshank Redemption” and there is a famous quote, “Get busy living or get busy dying”. While that sounds bleak and maybe a little harsh, I believe we all need to cherish each day as if it will be your last.
So with that in mind, it’s time to throw a effing party and have fun! Yay! LOL
And what the hell, you have the house to yourself now, so no time like the present to get laid in that new guest room! ;-)
Thanks of the kind words and I agree… I’m getting busy living. I have tried to remain as positive as I possibly can. It was a rough summer and then my brothers death on top of that, I’m read to get living… So yep, I plan on sticking around for a long time. Thank you as always for your support.. xoxo Dawn
I just want to say that continue to take care of yourself. Just do you! Because we all want to do you as well.
I am taking care of myself and feeling GREAT!! And thanks hun, I’m flattered!! xoxo
Dawn Marie,
I have been on your site with you since your NJ days. I won a contest years ago where I won a pair of your purple panties. I feel like you and I have matured together over the years even if you don’t know me. When I had heart surgery at 42 a few years ago your site gave me my first post-op hard on :) Wish I could something for you. I well send you my thoughts and prayers and best wishes
chris
Chris, Thank you so much for your kind words :) And I’m thrilled that I could be there for you and knowing that you are thinking of me and sending me positive thoughts means the absolute world to me : ) I’m doing GREAT and feeling GREAT!!! DM xoxo
sorry for hearing that hun. I know you are a fighter. I would still love to do a scene or two with you for the site. you are so hot.
Rob, Thanks so much for the kind words..and I’m flattered you would want to shoot with me : )
I meant every word. and yes I would love to do a shoot with you. Just let me know. email me.
Oh Dawn, I just saw this! I’m sorry to hear you’ve been going through all of this. What a relief that it’s just a maintenance issue. *hugs* and here’s hoping you’re feeling back to normal soon!
Elli.. Thanks so much for the message. So glad to be in maintenance after four months of chemo. The last one in July kicked my butt. I’m still dealing with a couple of issues, but I am feeling great now. But it has been one hell of a year for us that is for sure. On top of this we had the death of my younger brother. So, I’m ready for a new year and hopefully it will be a much better one.. Thanks again!!!
What a year for you guys! I hope you have some good fortune coming your way to make up for all of that!
Thanks Elli!!
You and Rob have been through a lot, especially this year, and yet, you both are always so upbeat and positive. That says a lot about you, but more than that, you are definitely a fighter! I’m so glad that you are on a maintenance routine now and I hope that after two years, you’ll only need to go in for check ups.
*hugs*
Thanks so much Angel you are a doll. I truly appreciate you and Devil being in my corner and being a part of my “posse” during this fight. It has been important to have such great people supporting me. xox